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Joelle Van Dyne

the pgoat

He could do the dextral pain the same way: Abiding. No one single instant of it was unendurable. Here was a second right here: he endured it. What was undealable-with was the thought of all the instants all lined up and stretching ahead, glittering. And the projected future fear… It’s too much to think about. To Abide there. But none of it’s as of now real… He could just hunker down in the space between each heartbeat and make each heartbeat a wall and live in there. Not let his head look over. What’s unendurable is what his own head could make of it all. What his head could report to him, looking over and ahead and reporting. But he could choose not to listen… He hadn’t quite gotten this before now, how it wasn’t just the matter of riding out cravings for a Substance: everything unendurable was in the head, was the head not Abiding in the Present but hopping the wall and doing a recon and then returning with unendurable news you then somehow believed.

—David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest


grishko 2007

grishko 2007

grishko 2007

grishko 2007

grishko 2007

if you are a lover of pain and humiliation, might i suggest going back en pointe at age 30? i will leave you with my favorite quote from my teacher this week. “the barre is your partner. you want to dance with him, not crush him…. i said NOT crush him joelle.”


shit fashion girls say via stylecaster


lions and leopards and roses, oh my

escada jacket, genetic denim jeans, miu miu sunglasses, louboutin miss tack boots

escada jacket, miu miu sunglasses

Happy 2012 everyone! Hope you had a great holiday and are enjoying a day off work today. Unfortunately I’m stuck in the office. On the plus side, Wall Street is a ghost town today and there was zero line at Starbucks (see what I did there? Being Positive = new resolution). Here are a few photos from a holiday dress-up session, featuring this vintage Escada jacket, which was a gift from Santa. When telling friends what I got, their reaction was unanimously “you got… an Escada jacket? Really? You like it?”. I hope when they see it they’ll understand. There are lions AND a leopard print on the same jacket, and the prints match up perfectly at the seams. 

In looking at these photos, another resolution will have to be buying a new pair of black jeans. The old standby pair is looking pretty shabby. And yet another resolution might be to figure out how to do flash photography- I was having all kinds of issues with the flash, and then with trying to get rid of light bursts in photoshop. Just squint when you look at the photos.

day bed, fur throw

miu miu sunglasses, escada jacket

I took these photos in my recently-painted home office/dressing room. I used Benjamin Moore ‘racoon fur’ and am in love with the nearly-black color. I found a few brass lamps and fogged mirrors at various Ohio thrift stores, and finally feel like I’m making some progress on getting my apartment in shape. Well, back to work! Maybe I’ll be back later this week with some apartment photos.

vintage escada jacket, h&m sequin skirt worn as a shirt, diane von furstenberg black slip dress, genetic denim jeans, christian louboutin miss tack boots, miu miu sunglasses


Dance, dance. Otherwise, we are lost.

—Saw the new Wim Wenders movie ‘Pina’ yesterday. Best thing I’ve seen in ages.


gold star

miu miu sunglasses, fur coat

miu miu sunglasses

you may remember my birthday wishlist, which i posted here in september. these ridiculous miu miu sparkle butterfly sunglasses were on that list, and at last, they are MINE! i fell in love with these as soon as i saw them shimmering down the runway, and put myself on a wait list for them in august, hoping to have them as a 30th birthday gift to myself. by october i had given up on ever receiving a pair, but then, lo and behold, in the end of november, they arrived. once a birthday present, now a christmas present.

when i went to pick them up, there was another woman at miu miu yelling at the sales associate “i KNOW you got the glasses!.. i don’t know why you’re lying about it!.. i’m sure you kept them for yourself!..” she was QUITE upset about not getting her glasses. i waited until she was safely gone before proudly announcing that i was there to pick up my own! 

i like to celebrate these glasses by dorkishly matching my entire outfit to them: shiny golden stars, a yellow dress, and boots that make me feel like a superhero. i can’t wait until i’m wearing these glasses on the beach with a gold lame’ swimsuit instead of a fur coat. to do before spring: acquire gold lame’ swimsuit.

stuart weitzman 5050 boots, miu miu sunglasses, rebecca taylor blouse, black halo dress

miu miu sunglasses, vintage fur coat, rebecca taylor blouse, black halo dress, wolford tights, stuart weitzman 5050 boots, jcrew bracelet


You have to love dancing to stick to it. It gives you nothing back, no manuscripts to store away, no paintings to show on walls and maybe hang in museums, no poems to be printed and sold, nothing but that single fleeting moment when you feel alive. It is not for unsteady souls.

—merce cunningham. on my way to see roaratorio tonight!


what i wore for a date with a vampire

alexander wang ashley boots, zac posen clutch, +j uniqlo blazer

zac posen bag

pamela love tee, jil sander for uniqlo jacket, velvet pants, alexander wang ashley boots

i hope you all had a great thanksgiving weekend! i know i did. this was the first year i stayed in NYC instead of going to montauk/hamptons for the weekend. i was pretty depressed about it at first, but it ended up being a good time to stay in the city. it was quiet, and the weather was beautiful. on this particular day, i took the dogs to play in our backyard before going to witness the masterpiece that is the latest TWILIGHT movie with my girlfriends. WOW those movies keep getting worse every time! i love them.

i wanted to wear something vampire-worthy to the movie. luckily the outfit i’ve had on repeat for weeks worked out fine: a skull tee shirt, velvet pants, and large, ruffled sleeves. 

cavalier king charles spaniel

millie wanted to go too, because she loves edward. and jacob. she loves all boys. is her face not the cutest one in the entire world?

velvet pants, pamela love shirt, jil sander uniqlo blazer, alexander wang ashley boots

+j uniqlo jacket, la perla sweater, pamela love tee shirt (c/o), bcbg velvet pants, alexander wang boots, zac posen bag


the evil powers of leggings

uniqlo +j down coat, kova and t leggings, alexander wang ashley boots, miu miu bow bag

uniqlo +j coat, alexander wang ashley boots, kova and t leggings, miu miu bow bag

uniqlo +j coat

long time no blog! i’ve had a really nice break from tumblr for the past couple weeks. i laid in bed for several days straight after finishing the NYC marathon; i spent a week with my family in ohio; i went to the movies a bunch; i ate my weight in red vines; etc. etc. i also wore basically the same outfit every day, and didn’t feel in the mood to take any photos. however, last week i had a nice dinner with of a kind, celebrating their 1-year anniversary (!!!), and attended a very hectic preview of versace for h&m with the inimitable rima, and suddenly felt like getting back into the swing of blog-things. 

i’ve shared my love for uniqlo’s +j collection here many times, and now i’m going to do it again. this is the first down jacket i’ve ever been attracted to. i first saw it when my mom was visiting me in nyc, and was disappointed when i couldn’t find my size. well, my super-mom spent her last morning in nyc going uptown to the new uniqlo store, finding my size, putting it on hold for me, and then slipping cash, in the exact amount of the coat, into my bag when she hugged me goodbye later that day. now i think of her every time i wear it.

+j uniqlo toggle coat

i’m not the only fan of jil sander’s uniqlo line. i managed to convince my boyfriend he NEEDED to check it out, and he ended up with this wool toggle coat.

alexa chung madewell sweater, kova and t leggings, alexander wang ashley boots

alexander wang ashley boots

aside from the cozy, wizard-sleeved down jacket, my uniform of late has included my low-heeled alexander wang boots, which are turning out to be my most sensible shoes. they’re so comfortable, and go with everything. i’ve also been wearing something i’m feeling sheepish about: leggings. i frequently complain when i can see the full outline of someone’s crotch in their leggings. thus, i have avoided wearing them since the 1980s. i feared that they would tempt me to wear shorter and shorter shirts, until i, too, was displaying my crotch outline for the world to see. 

however, in ohio, i saw these kova & t faux-leather leggings, and remembered admiring them on an olsen twin years ago. i came up with several reasons i should buy them: an olsen wore them; the price was right; i will never fit my thighs into actual leather pants. and so, i gave in. and i’ve been wearing these all the time, feeling so comfortable, so free, so ashamed. 

alexa chung madewell sweater, kova and t leggings, alexander wang ashley boots

uniqlo +j down coat, alexa chung for madewell sweater, ny&co dress, kova & t leggings, alexander wang boots, miu miu bag


keeping off my feet

alexander wang ashley boots

alexander wang shorts

madewell sweater, alexander wang shorts, alexander wang ashley boots

i’m a bundle of nerves today, as i prepare to run the NYC marathon tomorrow. it’ll be my first, and probably only, marathon. as a completely un-athletic lady, it is very intimidating; however, i’ve done my best to train. i was able to run 20 miles 2 weeks ago. i could hardly walk home after, but i felt like a rockstar. this week, during a quick 3-mile jog, i did something bad to my left leg so that it’s hurt to walk all week. i’m hoping i get an adrenaline rush tomorrow that makes me forget my left and make it to the finish line. please cross your fingers and toes for me- i’ll need it!

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